I thought that having two babies right after each other was a brilliant idea; I would finish the hard times that come with raising infants in one go and finally get to enjoy them when they are a bit older. I would get rid of midnight feedings, diaper duty, teething and all the other troubles of the early days all at once.
Turns out it is one of my dumbest ideas. I say this not because of the fatigue that comes with it, rather the lack of time I have to care for both simultaneously. Yousef who is a year and nine months old is so demanding and occupying I barely have time for Mona. When I hold her, feed her, change her diapers or even play with her, he is there on top of her, grabbing her hand, poking her eye and pulling her foot. In many cases, he just sticks his face to hers until she cries.
As a result, I hand her over to the nanny whom I really trust. But, this situation is becoming the norm and I hate it. We try switching babies but it is no use, Yousef wants me and only me.
Call me dramatic and obsessive but I'm so scared that my baby will not know me as much as the nanny. My friend keeps on telling me this is normal with two such young babies but I cannot help but worry! Help?